bobby bobby, i am missing you so much i seem to be feeling it more and more, as it gets close to your birthday, i tried to go into the hospital friday babe but nearly collapsed in a heap, 2 soon i think, i just wanted to say hello to all your girlfriends, as i miss them aswell as you babe, as for the last six months bobby they was all we knew, so not only did i lose you i lost them to,and im struggling babe, life without you is unbearable, i try and put a brave face on but as soon as im alone it all comes flooding out, i still cant sleep at nites baby, i feel like im betraying you if i do, i hope i will see you soon baby, ive decided no matter what my tests show im not going to have treatment, at least that way its not like im ending it myself, dont be cross bobby, im sure you can see no1 needs me i may aswell not be here, i want you baby, i need you so so much, please dont make it hard for me baby. i love you so much baby xxxx